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The Danger of Quitting
Mar. 14th, 2006 07:13 amI've stopped biting my nails. Believe me when I say that this was difficult.
For most of my life I've had the rather nasty habit of being a nail biter any time things got a bit stressful. My nails never had that little white end on them, my finger tips and around the cuticles were completely torn apart, and over all they looked like I had shoved them into a blender that I forgot was on. Repeatedly.
But now I've stopped. I have fingernails, and my fingers don't hurt because I've inflicted so much damage on them by ripping off bits when I was nervous. My hands look clean, well taken care of. It's strange, but very good. I remember to clip my nails roughly once a week, and if I forget, no big deal. Right? Yeah, you'd think so.
I've lived my life without nails. When I have an itch, I would really dig into it and scratch it more with my fingertips than anything else, since I had no nails. Out of habit, I continue to do this.
Ouch! I'm leaving small scratches on myself when I'm not careful!
And why didn't anyone warn me that sometimes the edges of your nails get kind of sharp, and stick out a little bit? Why doesn't anyone mention these things? Or let those of us without nails know that if you let them grow a little, you'll get these things snagged on just about anything that has fiber to it?
Sometimes I start to wonder if a perpetual ache is better than a sharp ocassional pain.
Then I realize I should just go get the freakin' clippers.
For most of my life I've had the rather nasty habit of being a nail biter any time things got a bit stressful. My nails never had that little white end on them, my finger tips and around the cuticles were completely torn apart, and over all they looked like I had shoved them into a blender that I forgot was on. Repeatedly.
But now I've stopped. I have fingernails, and my fingers don't hurt because I've inflicted so much damage on them by ripping off bits when I was nervous. My hands look clean, well taken care of. It's strange, but very good. I remember to clip my nails roughly once a week, and if I forget, no big deal. Right? Yeah, you'd think so.
I've lived my life without nails. When I have an itch, I would really dig into it and scratch it more with my fingertips than anything else, since I had no nails. Out of habit, I continue to do this.
Ouch! I'm leaving small scratches on myself when I'm not careful!
And why didn't anyone warn me that sometimes the edges of your nails get kind of sharp, and stick out a little bit? Why doesn't anyone mention these things? Or let those of us without nails know that if you let them grow a little, you'll get these things snagged on just about anything that has fiber to it?
Sometimes I start to wonder if a perpetual ache is better than a sharp ocassional pain.
Then I realize I should just go get the freakin' clippers.
