Oh come on!

I'm so frustrated with work today. As most of you know I work from home, making my own schedule as long as I get the work done by midnight and keep my hours reasonable. This is a really cool set up and works well for me usually, but today? Today fails.

The dogs want attention every five minutes and won't take no for an answer. I try to say no, but then they start barking, which means I can't hear my calls, or they start pawing at me which is usually the big guys sign saying he needs to go out. So, we get out there and

nothing.

Add to this that the servers are running slow, thus making my transcription difficult to pay attention to since there can be up to a full half a minute between files, and the fact that I'm just not in the mood to work, and I'm having a frustrating day.

I wonder if the President ever feels this way. "Sorry folks, I can't be doing the Presidenting today, I need to take the dog out and I just don't wanna. Tell them all to deal with it themselves!" And then the world blows up while he's on vacation.

At least he has a health plan. All I've got is tylenol.

Yum Makes It All Better

Okay, so my morning wasn't going so well and I was really ready to just shut down and take a nice long nap, which wouldnt have been a bad thing, but at the same time would have been because I have work to do. Instead, I remembered that I had to make spaghetti sauce or we would have no dinner tonight! A part of me argued that if I didn't make it we might be able to have a fish fry (probably my favorite meal these days), but honesty won out in straight sets, and I got to cooking.

Nothing soothes me like cooking. The gentle rythm of cutting the vegetables, the harsh staccatto of the oil popping to its own beat, the smells, the memories, the tears. Tears? Damn that onion was powerful.

It was nice, getting into the kitchen and making my bastardized version of my family sauce into something that Maria will enjoy. I've actually created my own "family" sauce, so that feels good.

I'm relaxed now, able to work without feeling stressed, and handling the dogs better. It's absolutely amazing what getting into a kitchen can do if I'm cooking something I know really well. Very few things can be as calming. I sincerely hope that everyone has something like this for themselves that no matter how bad things are they can turn to it, and even if they don't "return to normal" afterwards, at the very least they are better during it.