Glad it's interesting, even if it's giving you a bit of a mixed reaction thinking of your own caution on the topic.
We were usually pretty careful, and though there were some that I still don't like to talk about (I wrote about one, it should be linked to in my memories, but I don't want to go looking for it, sorry), I would do it again. Some of it has carried through, the feeling, the memory, the fear.
That fear made me feel alive. Scared, worried that maybe I was putting my friends in a situation that we wouldn't walk out of (sounds overly-dramatic now, but it sure as hell didn't then), but alive.
I actually miss it.
The me that finally said "that's enough" and stopped doing this would probably smack me for saying that. :)
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Date: 2007-05-02 08:39 pm (UTC)We were usually pretty careful, and though there were some that I still don't like to talk about (I wrote about one, it should be linked to in my memories, but I don't want to go looking for it, sorry), I would do it again. Some of it has carried through, the feeling, the memory, the fear.
That fear made me feel alive. Scared, worried that maybe I was putting my friends in a situation that we wouldn't walk out of (sounds overly-dramatic now, but it sure as hell didn't then), but alive.
I actually miss it.
The me that finally said "that's enough" and stopped doing this would probably smack me for saying that. :)