Things

Weird, odd, and all-together strange things have been happening to my mentality lately, mostly dealing with my energy levels but also having to do with thinking back to when I used to deal with "otherworldly" things.

I found the evidence once, you know, that could have proved to everyone that these things were real. Well, not ~everyone~, of course, because there will always be sceptics, but you know what I mean. The truth of the matter was, however, that with the proof was the fact that everything would be stood on its head for the people seeing it. Religion, day-to-day life, interpersonal relationships, all would become different, leading to paranoia, fear, hatred, possibly even deaths.

People just aren't ready to see reality. Those that are, do. I just have to accept that. The thing is, when I made the decision that I made, I started to lose touch with that part of my life. Something seems to be drawing me back, and I'm not sure what it is. We'll have to see where this goes.

Friday Five, and an Update

1. How did you learn about yesterday's bombings in London?
~We went to an interrment yesterday for Maria's aunt. While there, Maria's father asked us what we thought about what happened over in London. We had no clue what he was talking about because we don't watch TV at all, and the radio we listened to was just playing music. I still have barely any real information on the whole thing.

2. Do you have any personal connections to the area?
~An old internet friend that used to go by the handle "Minky." A wonderful person, but now that I think about it, I'm not so sure she was in that area, really. Of course, when I think about England, I picture some place the size of New York, and so I think that everything is real close to everything else.

3. Do you use public transportation?
~Not often at all.

4. Have you ever let threats of terrorism change the way that you live each day?
~Directly after 9-11, the only real change in my day-to-day life was that I was a bit more wary about odd things. That's faded, and it hasn't really come back. I mean, sure, when I see a huge truck parked somewhere odd, my mind wonders, but that's about it.

5. If you could say something directly to the person or group responsible for this tragedy, what would you say?
~I have no idea. It's not really something that I imagine, and it's difficult to wrap my head around. I mean, simple things come to mind, like "No," and "Bad," but I'm pretty sure that's just not enough. I'm just not the one that should be giving them the speech, I guess.

Has anyone ever noticed that when bad things happen, people pull together? Yes, I know, everyone's noticed. I have a theory on that, and I know that some people aren't going to like it.

People pull together for comfort, yes, but also because they feel the need to ooh and ahh over their new entertainment together. They say things like "isn't it a tragedy," and "how horrible" while that TV station stays on all day, replaying the same three scenes and the same four pieces of information that all the news stations have.

All the while, a part of them is feeling some kind of thrill over it all. The thrill isn't some psychopathic meandering of the mind saying "Yes, death and destruction to them all!" No. Instead, this thrill is the part of the mind that says, "Wow, I'm glad that wasn't me. It could have been me. I wonder what would have happened if I had been there!" We put ourselves in unlikely situations, subconciously, and our mind enjoys it.

This isn't a bad thing. People pull together, and start talking about what happened and what it "must have been like," as though they know. They feel a need to relate, both to each other and to the victims. It's an amazing parallel to watch within people.

I have found, however, that some people have this empathy much stronger than others. Some don't feel it at all, while others weep scream and cry for people they've never known, never would have known, and that they don't actually care about, at least not in a normal way.

Me? I have a very strong sense of empathy. It's why I cry during sappy movies (Can't use it against me now, can ya?), or feel really bad when those around me are unhappy. There's an odd element to mine, however: I get empathic about situations that never happened and never really could happen. I get bummed (or happy) about situations that I completely make up in my head.

For example: There's a world in my head that doesn't exist here. It's the people I write about a lot of the time, and I truly enjoy watching their lives. I know it's my imagination, and I know they don't really exist beyond in my head (I know, some philosophers would say that then they truly do exist, I'm not getting into that right now), but when something bad or good happens to them, I can truly feel their pain or pleasure. It's...odd, and I accept that.

So here's what I'm wondering: How empathic are you? When you friends are sad/happy/angry/whatever, do you take that feeling into yourself? Can you even tell? When you hear about things like what happened in England, how do you feel? Do you cry at sad movies (someone admit this so I don't feel like a wuss, okay?)?

What plays with your emotions like a cat with a string?

I Actually Like This One!

This is kind of an interesting way to see what you know about people on your f-list.

Random Friendslist Generator by katstevens
Username
1.	wicked_wish
2.	jezkacer
3.	evilbutcute
4.	deaddmwalking
5.	darqentries
6.	photognome
7.	a_poets_justice
8.	pierrot_le_fou_
9.	deceptive_smile
10.	jfargo
11.	enchanted_eve
Quiz created with MemeGen!

1. Who is #1 going out with? Jym, a man with a livejournal, but I don't know him.
2. Is #9 a boy or a girl? A boy, if I'm remembering properly. I don't really read him any more.
3. Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple? Not entirely certain. I don't know jez well enough to know how she'd get along with Enchanted_Eve.
4. What is #6's favorite band? Guinness Beer?
5. Does #3 have any siblings? I think she has a brother?
6. Would you ever date #7? Supposing I didn't have a girlfriend already, like I do? Sure.
7. What's #10's middle name? Martin. Heheh.
8. What's #5's favorite thing to do? LARP?
9. Tell me a random fact about #11. She has an awesome sense of humor.
10. And #1: She's a published author.
11. And #10: He's hot.
12. Where does #8 live? Buffalo NY area.
13. What's #4's favorite color? Red?
14. How did you meet #2? Livejournal, as with about half of these people.
15. Does #10 have any pets? Yup, a wiley pup named Won Ton
16. Who on the list have you known the longest? Other than #10? Probably #11.
17. Who on the list lives farthest away from you? I think it's Jezkacer by a state or two, but just doing this from memory I could be way off.
18. Who on the list owes you a mix CD? Jfargo