This Is My Life

I don't want to go to class today. This, in and of itself is nothing new. For some reason, my brain equates going to class with something bad, when in reality I enjoy class. I've done it for a long time, ever since High School. I didn't actually like High School, but if I had to guess I'd say that's because I allowed my brain to control the rest of me.

Big mistake.

When you allow your brain, the brain that wakes up in the morning and says "It's too early, go back to sleep" even though you've hit the snooze button so many times that the alarm has given up, to take control, you're often setting yourself up for failure, especially if you sometimes suffer from a touch of depression, or any similar things. When you let your brain convince you that school/work/parties/daily requirements isn't worth going to, then you're going to quickly learn that taking the route your brain prescribes can often lead to trouble.

More often than not, I think my brain is against me. It tells me every morning to stay in bed. After I get out of bed it explains to me that taking a shower takes too much energy. Once I'm finished with my shower, my brain suggests that class today is unnecessary and that 1% off my grade is going to be meaningless. Not only that, my brain whispers, class is going to be horrible, and I'm going to feel stupid, and oh my god you didn't do all your homework, and everyone's going to look at you and, and, and, and.

Stop.

Is it normal to feel as though the part of you that is supposed to control rational thought and reactions is the enemy? Probably not. Still, I've always felt that once you've identified the problem, you have a much better chance of succeeding and coming out the other side unscathed. Once you do that enough, I'd like to think, the enemy starts to realize that it can't possibly succeed. Then, given enough time, maybe the enemy grudgingly starts working on your side, working for you rather than against you.

So, yes, my brain is against me, wanting me to take the easy way out. It doesn't seem to realize that taking the easy way out now leads to a much harder life later. I just need to train my brain, teach it that the "hard" way isn't really that difficult.

Anybody know the easiest way to do that?

Heh.