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Late Night Rambling
Sep. 27th, 2010 01:03 amSometimes radical honesty can be a bitch. I find that when I'm embarrassed about sharing an idea or instinctively shy away from it that's when it's most important I say/do something about it. No hiding secrets behind silence; no lies by omission. Simple, straight-forward honesty.
Oh dear lord how much easier it is.
"I like you" instead of weeks of twisting and turning in the wind. "No, I'm sorry, I don't want to hang out with you, please stop asking." It hurts at the moment but hopefully they get over it and move on instead of eventually realizing that they've never been invited to hang out and never will be. "Yes, that's true" instead of a prevarication to a potentially embarrassing question. True, I might blush while saying it but then the truth is out there, not hiding and making me feel awkward.
I'm not perfect at it. There are things I want to say that I keep inside, mostly things that come to me at night when my emotions are running high and hot. Words that would tear people apart for no reason, or rip my life to shreds while not being as true as I want them to be.
Sometimes the most important part of radical honesty is figuring out when I'm not being honest with myself.
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Oh dear lord how much easier it is.
"I like you" instead of weeks of twisting and turning in the wind. "No, I'm sorry, I don't want to hang out with you, please stop asking." It hurts at the moment but hopefully they get over it and move on instead of eventually realizing that they've never been invited to hang out and never will be. "Yes, that's true" instead of a prevarication to a potentially embarrassing question. True, I might blush while saying it but then the truth is out there, not hiding and making me feel awkward.
I'm not perfect at it. There are things I want to say that I keep inside, mostly things that come to me at night when my emotions are running high and hot. Words that would tear people apart for no reason, or rip my life to shreds while not being as true as I want them to be.
Sometimes the most important part of radical honesty is figuring out when I'm not being honest with myself.
This stream of consciousness has been brought to you by the letter r and the number 4,754.
