Jumbled

[jmfargo]

I was just given the chance to get in touch with many of my closest friends from my years in high school, and though I look over their profiles with a smile on my face, I hesitate in indecision before clicking to start reading. Immediately, I'm sucked back in to old feelings, remembering what we used to be, how close we were, how good it was to simply be with these people that I haven't talked with in almost six years.

Things have changed so much. Even now, thinking back to the way it was back then I feel nostalgic, and kind of lonely. I love Maria, and hanging out with my friends out here is great, but these old friends and I had the connection of going through the roughest times of our lives together. Okay, maybe not the roughest, but some real turbulence that messed us all up.

So many things have changed, but then I see my old friend's smile in a photograph, and I see the same old person there, behind the years that have changed them.

I miss them. I don't know what else to say.

I realize that I'm a little ... angsty ... today, and I apoligize for that. It's been a day for deep introspection. I'm a little bit not here in my brain. It's not depression, just wishing for things I can't have. I need to go do some kind of work-out, I think, to get out a little bit of these feelings that are invading.


((EDIT: Yeah, that's right, I signed up for a myspace account. That's me. See how original my user name is?))

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Re: Hehe

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

One of the reasons I enjoy Dagorhir so much is that honor only exists if the combatants decides it does. In other words, sure you might be having an "honor battle" in the middle of the battle field, but you know what? I'm going to kill the guy you're fighting against when his back is turned because you could be used elsewhere right now and you're wasting time.

Not that I recently did this to someone and later had to calmly explain to them why an honor battle in melee was REALLY useless. Kill them and move on. That's MY motto! (In the game, of course. It's the motto of my NINJAS in real life. They do my dirty work.)