Watch Me!

[jmfargo]

I'm sad, but don't know why. My emotions have been rollercoasting lately, with a lot of focus on the negatives, and that's not good. I'm struggling through some kind of weird depression that ranges from sad, to intensly and strangely angry. The anger only seems to come late at night, when I'm tired, and it's tinged with some kind of frustration that I can't place.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not sobbing, or shattering things, or in general doing anything negative, I'm just getting these strange sweeping winds of emotion that whistle through me as though I wasn't there, filling me up, only to be pushed away at the whim of the next breeze.

I'm not particularly sad at the moment, but lonely. I'm keeping busy to help combat it, but it's definately there.

I thought the sun-lit months were supposed to improve my mood?

Maybe I'm not getting enough sun. I think I'll make sure to get out there for at least a little while today.

Any advice, other than what I'm already thinking/doing?

Comments

[periannth.livejournal.com]

I would love to play in your zombie game! I have been sadly RPG-less for the past week or so, and zombies are always fun! Let me know when dates and times are set, and I'll be there. :)

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Do you know anyone in the area that might like to play in a realistic fantasy zombie game? I love my group, but some new blood wouldn't hurt either. I'm thinking of running two games - one with my usual group (Derek, Kath, Earl, and Maria if they all want to play) and one with "new" blood like you, Maria because she kind of lives here, and whoever else I might be able to attract. I don't know, just an idea I've been kicking around.

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Hmm...The only people I can think of are some of the older and more mature people from our Dag group...Unfortunately, I'm in a mostly RP-free zone out here. Is there a Yahoo Group or something for people looking for games in the area? There's one for East Lansing and a bunch of other areas, and it makes it easier to find games or players.