Watch Me!

[jmfargo]

I'm sad, but don't know why. My emotions have been rollercoasting lately, with a lot of focus on the negatives, and that's not good. I'm struggling through some kind of weird depression that ranges from sad, to intensly and strangely angry. The anger only seems to come late at night, when I'm tired, and it's tinged with some kind of frustration that I can't place.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not sobbing, or shattering things, or in general doing anything negative, I'm just getting these strange sweeping winds of emotion that whistle through me as though I wasn't there, filling me up, only to be pushed away at the whim of the next breeze.

I'm not particularly sad at the moment, but lonely. I'm keeping busy to help combat it, but it's definately there.

I thought the sun-lit months were supposed to improve my mood?

Maybe I'm not getting enough sun. I think I'll make sure to get out there for at least a little while today.

Any advice, other than what I'm already thinking/doing?

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[jenk4525.livejournal.com]

I had that same thing a few weeks ago. Just this intense negative feeling every so often. Well, except for that one day, where I basically cried the entire time, with NO reason why. That sucked a little.

Lasted about a week. I didn't really do anything special to snap out of it, it just sort of happened. And I still don't have a clue why it happened in the first place -- it's not like my life was going poorly or anything of that sort.

Doubtful this helped in any way, but I thought I might share.

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Comisseration is always helpful. "Birds of a feather" and all that.

Glad to hear you snapped out of it. :) It gives me hope.

I'm doing better after working outside for a while, and am thinking I'm going to go back out there for a while, hopefully the sun will work its magic on me, or something.

You know, I used to be such the night person...maybe I need to go for a moonlit walk like I used to to recharge? Sorry, just kind of typing to myself at this point, wondering "out loud" as it were.

[jenk4525.livejournal.com]

A moonlit walk should do the trick. Any kind of walking, really. They say exercise raises your energy levels and your spirits, since it releases some fun hormones.

Good that you're getting better, at least a little. I don't know what it is about this time of year now... theferrett is in [full] swing with his SAD right now, too.

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

I know about the exercise thing, and even if I didn't then reading theferrett would have helped me learn about it since he was talking about it just the other day. It's strange, all the people that piped up about having SAD during the "wrong time of the year" when he brought it up. I wonder how many people "are" SAD in the summer, and just don't realize it because they think it to be just a winter thing.

Exercise. Hmm. Well, I just set up the badminton net, now I just need someone to play against. Might not sound like much, but the way I play, it's exercise! Same with Ping-Pong!

[periannth.livejournal.com]

I've been feeling that way lately too, though part of it may be all the stress I've been under...

Now that I'm back, I've been feeling lonely also. Wanna get together some time to combat the lonliness? ;)

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

I'm free just about every day during the day this week. Of course, as I say that I realize that Wednesday and Friday I'm not - but other than that I'm only working afternoons on..um...you know, the one day that's left. Heh.

Turns out I'm not very smart either right now and can't do the math that "every day during this week" is 1 out of 3.

But if you wanted to do something on that day, that would be cool. :) Besides, there was something I wanted to talk to you about...

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Ooh, mysterious conversations! ;) I'll have to check to make sure that a vehicle would be at my disposal, but I think we can work something out.

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

That would be great. I love hanging out with friends now and then, just getting together and chatting.

Hey, now that you're back, you could start playing D&D again, when I get my next game going? I still have one going right now, but it's nearing the end - could end tomorrow if the PCs do the right things! I don't want it to, but it could.

Would you be interested in a gritty, real-life-like D&D zombie survival game? *grins* It's going to be full of house rules, but that's not too big of a deal...just working out some kinks in the system for the type of game I want to run, you know?

[periannth.livejournal.com]

I would love to play in your zombie game! I have been sadly RPG-less for the past week or so, and zombies are always fun! Let me know when dates and times are set, and I'll be there. :)

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Do you know anyone in the area that might like to play in a realistic fantasy zombie game? I love my group, but some new blood wouldn't hurt either. I'm thinking of running two games - one with my usual group (Derek, Kath, Earl, and Maria if they all want to play) and one with "new" blood like you, Maria because she kind of lives here, and whoever else I might be able to attract. I don't know, just an idea I've been kicking around.

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Hmm...The only people I can think of are some of the older and more mature people from our Dag group...Unfortunately, I'm in a mostly RP-free zone out here. Is there a Yahoo Group or something for people looking for games in the area? There's one for East Lansing and a bunch of other areas, and it makes it easier to find games or players.

Crud!

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Well, it looks like I won't be able to use a van during the day Thursday...My mom is going to be running errands all day. :(

Re: Crud!

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Might you be at all interested in coming over today? There's burgers and hotdogs in it for you, as well as boca burgers if you don't want meat.

I have a role or two tonight that you might be able to help me out by playing, if you wanted to, and if you came early enough we could even get in a game or two of badminton. ;)

Just a thought is all. :)

Re: Crud!

[periannth.livejournal.com]

I most definitely would! Playing an NPC or two would be fun, and I haven't gotten to play badminton in quite awhile. What time will things be kicking off?

Re: Crud!

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Well, I just got off work now, and have to do some work to make sure I'm ready for tonight, and D&D doesn't start until 6, but if we're going to have you run an NPC or two, I should brief you, and if you want to come play badminton then you might want to come even earlier.

So, how early can you get here? You could even help me prep the NPCs, if you wanted? I know it might not sound super exciting or anything, but I'm lonely. :)

Re: Crud!

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately, I'm not going to be able to get there until quarter to six-ish. My sister has a softball game, so my mom's up there, and my dad won't be home until 5:15, and I'll leave as soon as he gets here.

Can I tell you that I really wish I had my own car right about now?

Re: Crud!

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

*chuckles* That'll be fine. I'll see you when you get here.

[evilbutcute.livejournal.com]

Mood problems and a gloomy depression started to happen to my sister when she went on Atkins.

If you've cut your carbs, that could be the culprit. Your brain and hormones may be screamin for it.

The carbs I mean. :)

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

I have changed my diet, and that may definately be affecting things. I didn't think about that, thanks for pointing it out. I've cut some carbs, but not nearly to the excess that Atkins and other such diets bring it. I'm just trying to be healthier - less meat, more vegetables, smaller portions and less processed foods. For me that's a rather big change, and probably has something to do with it.

Working outside in the sun is definately improving my mood though - even while it's destroying the shower I took this morning.

Being fat is good for one thing: Sweating. I'm not saying sweating is good, I'm just saying that I'm good at it.

I'm in a better mood, which makes me weirder. Sue me. :)

[evilbutcute.livejournal.com]

Try adding some complex carbs like a whole grain or brown rice. It's got the carbs you probably need, but not the simple carbs that will jack your bloodsugar too much.

Glad you're in a better mood. The sun does wonders as well. :)

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Complex carbs. Hmm. That's like, candy with riddles on it, right?

[evilbutcute.livejournal.com]

BWAahahaaa... *snort*

Um... Yes.. Yes it is. :)

[enchanted-eve.livejournal.com]

Sadness is actually more common in the spring then people think. The season is changing and growing and if your life isn't sometimes it's a feeling left behind thing. I had a week of that 2 weeks ago but I finaly seemed to snap out of it. Good luck and come to Rochester sometime!
-M

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

I don't know about the feeling left behind part, but that could definately explain why I suddenly want to run out and learn things, increase my skills and improve myself. That definately makes sense.

I'm sure I'd love to come out to Rochester some time, it seems that's where most all of the cool kids live. :)