Watch Me!

[jmfargo]

I'm sad, but don't know why. My emotions have been rollercoasting lately, with a lot of focus on the negatives, and that's not good. I'm struggling through some kind of weird depression that ranges from sad, to intensly and strangely angry. The anger only seems to come late at night, when I'm tired, and it's tinged with some kind of frustration that I can't place.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not sobbing, or shattering things, or in general doing anything negative, I'm just getting these strange sweeping winds of emotion that whistle through me as though I wasn't there, filling me up, only to be pushed away at the whim of the next breeze.

I'm not particularly sad at the moment, but lonely. I'm keeping busy to help combat it, but it's definately there.

I thought the sun-lit months were supposed to improve my mood?

Maybe I'm not getting enough sun. I think I'll make sure to get out there for at least a little while today.

Any advice, other than what I'm already thinking/doing?

Comments

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

I'm free just about every day during the day this week. Of course, as I say that I realize that Wednesday and Friday I'm not - but other than that I'm only working afternoons on..um...you know, the one day that's left. Heh.

Turns out I'm not very smart either right now and can't do the math that "every day during this week" is 1 out of 3.

But if you wanted to do something on that day, that would be cool. :) Besides, there was something I wanted to talk to you about...

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Ooh, mysterious conversations! ;) I'll have to check to make sure that a vehicle would be at my disposal, but I think we can work something out.

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

That would be great. I love hanging out with friends now and then, just getting together and chatting.

Hey, now that you're back, you could start playing D&D again, when I get my next game going? I still have one going right now, but it's nearing the end - could end tomorrow if the PCs do the right things! I don't want it to, but it could.

Would you be interested in a gritty, real-life-like D&D zombie survival game? *grins* It's going to be full of house rules, but that's not too big of a deal...just working out some kinks in the system for the type of game I want to run, you know?

[periannth.livejournal.com]

I would love to play in your zombie game! I have been sadly RPG-less for the past week or so, and zombies are always fun! Let me know when dates and times are set, and I'll be there. :)

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Do you know anyone in the area that might like to play in a realistic fantasy zombie game? I love my group, but some new blood wouldn't hurt either. I'm thinking of running two games - one with my usual group (Derek, Kath, Earl, and Maria if they all want to play) and one with "new" blood like you, Maria because she kind of lives here, and whoever else I might be able to attract. I don't know, just an idea I've been kicking around.

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Hmm...The only people I can think of are some of the older and more mature people from our Dag group...Unfortunately, I'm in a mostly RP-free zone out here. Is there a Yahoo Group or something for people looking for games in the area? There's one for East Lansing and a bunch of other areas, and it makes it easier to find games or players.

Crud!

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Well, it looks like I won't be able to use a van during the day Thursday...My mom is going to be running errands all day. :(

Re: Crud!

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Might you be at all interested in coming over today? There's burgers and hotdogs in it for you, as well as boca burgers if you don't want meat.

I have a role or two tonight that you might be able to help me out by playing, if you wanted to, and if you came early enough we could even get in a game or two of badminton. ;)

Just a thought is all. :)

Re: Crud!

[periannth.livejournal.com]

I most definitely would! Playing an NPC or two would be fun, and I haven't gotten to play badminton in quite awhile. What time will things be kicking off?

Re: Crud!

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Well, I just got off work now, and have to do some work to make sure I'm ready for tonight, and D&D doesn't start until 6, but if we're going to have you run an NPC or two, I should brief you, and if you want to come play badminton then you might want to come even earlier.

So, how early can you get here? You could even help me prep the NPCs, if you wanted? I know it might not sound super exciting or anything, but I'm lonely. :)

Re: Crud!

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately, I'm not going to be able to get there until quarter to six-ish. My sister has a softball game, so my mom's up there, and my dad won't be home until 5:15, and I'll leave as soon as he gets here.

Can I tell you that I really wish I had my own car right about now?

Re: Crud!

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

*chuckles* That'll be fine. I'll see you when you get here.