Watch Me!

[jmfargo]

I'm sad, but don't know why. My emotions have been rollercoasting lately, with a lot of focus on the negatives, and that's not good. I'm struggling through some kind of weird depression that ranges from sad, to intensly and strangely angry. The anger only seems to come late at night, when I'm tired, and it's tinged with some kind of frustration that I can't place.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not sobbing, or shattering things, or in general doing anything negative, I'm just getting these strange sweeping winds of emotion that whistle through me as though I wasn't there, filling me up, only to be pushed away at the whim of the next breeze.

I'm not particularly sad at the moment, but lonely. I'm keeping busy to help combat it, but it's definately there.

I thought the sun-lit months were supposed to improve my mood?

Maybe I'm not getting enough sun. I think I'll make sure to get out there for at least a little while today.

Any advice, other than what I'm already thinking/doing?

Comments

Crud!

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Well, it looks like I won't be able to use a van during the day Thursday...My mom is going to be running errands all day. :(

Re: Crud!

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Might you be at all interested in coming over today? There's burgers and hotdogs in it for you, as well as boca burgers if you don't want meat.

I have a role or two tonight that you might be able to help me out by playing, if you wanted to, and if you came early enough we could even get in a game or two of badminton. ;)

Just a thought is all. :)

Re: Crud!

[periannth.livejournal.com]

I most definitely would! Playing an NPC or two would be fun, and I haven't gotten to play badminton in quite awhile. What time will things be kicking off?

Re: Crud!

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Well, I just got off work now, and have to do some work to make sure I'm ready for tonight, and D&D doesn't start until 6, but if we're going to have you run an NPC or two, I should brief you, and if you want to come play badminton then you might want to come even earlier.

So, how early can you get here? You could even help me prep the NPCs, if you wanted? I know it might not sound super exciting or anything, but I'm lonely. :)

Re: Crud!

[periannth.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately, I'm not going to be able to get there until quarter to six-ish. My sister has a softball game, so my mom's up there, and my dad won't be home until 5:15, and I'll leave as soon as he gets here.

Can I tell you that I really wish I had my own car right about now?

Re: Crud!

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

*chuckles* That'll be fine. I'll see you when you get here.