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[jmfargo]

I'm sad, but don't know why. My emotions have been rollercoasting lately, with a lot of focus on the negatives, and that's not good. I'm struggling through some kind of weird depression that ranges from sad, to intensly and strangely angry. The anger only seems to come late at night, when I'm tired, and it's tinged with some kind of frustration that I can't place.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not sobbing, or shattering things, or in general doing anything negative, I'm just getting these strange sweeping winds of emotion that whistle through me as though I wasn't there, filling me up, only to be pushed away at the whim of the next breeze.

I'm not particularly sad at the moment, but lonely. I'm keeping busy to help combat it, but it's definately there.

I thought the sun-lit months were supposed to improve my mood?

Maybe I'm not getting enough sun. I think I'll make sure to get out there for at least a little while today.

Any advice, other than what I'm already thinking/doing?

Comments

[enchanted-eve.livejournal.com]

Sadness is actually more common in the spring then people think. The season is changing and growing and if your life isn't sometimes it's a feeling left behind thing. I had a week of that 2 weeks ago but I finaly seemed to snap out of it. Good luck and come to Rochester sometime!
-M

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

I don't know about the feeling left behind part, but that could definately explain why I suddenly want to run out and learn things, increase my skills and improve myself. That definately makes sense.

I'm sure I'd love to come out to Rochester some time, it seems that's where most all of the cool kids live. :)