Today, Tomorrow, Forever

[jmfargo]

I feel as though my brain is full. Like a glass full to the brim of red wine over white carpet, another drop spells disaster, and for a moment it hangs on, but you know what's going to happen, and then...

But thankfully when the brain gets full you don't have a mess to clean up, or not a visible one at least. The one left behind as all your thoughts come tumbling out over the edge can be pretty messy, but usually easily cleaned.

I'm taking college-level Arabic, and today was the first class.

The second I repeated the words the teacher would say, they were forgotten. Immediately, as though swept away, the words I was trying to remember were gone. I turned to my paired partner, and didn't know what I was supposed to say.

I can't ever remember feeling stupid. In High School there were plenty of concepts I just didn't grasp, but I never had to really work to remember the basics. This, today? This was horrifying.

The fact that two of the students are native Arabic speakers also seems unfair.

Add to that one of the female students coming to me before class and asking if I was the teacher, and now I feel old on top of everything else.

Today is not a happy day, but I'll survive.

Comments

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Heh. Yeah. I've come to realize and accept that I'm old. I mean, I'm not OLD*, but if I'm going to be going to college I have to get used to the fact that most of the students are in their teens.

At least I'm still young compared to my D&D crowd. Got to keep it all in perspective. :)

*I'm not even sure what I qualify as old, yet. Definitely over 60, but 50? I don't know. 40? Nope. I'm too close to 40 for it to be ~old~. :)

[1mother1.livejournal.com]

Holy Cow you guys YOU ARE NOT OLD! I'm fifty-four and in great shape. I volunteer at an extended day care facility. One woman on her hundreth birthday said, " I'm finally a old lady "

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Everything is relative mom. :)

[1mother1.livejournal.com]

Ok Ok

[jfargo.livejournal.com]

Heh.

I'm just sayin', I realize I'm not actually old, but at the same time here I am surrounded by people who are looking at me as though I AM old.

That can make anybody feel old. You know? :)

[1mother1.livejournal.com]

I guess the difference between you and me is my age doesn't bother me no matter how old somebody is.